Just for once , I want you back

As what people says and I starting to realise , people comes into our life and leaves us too as well.
Every time I trust somebody, they show me why I shouldn't . Things get tougher down the road and I thought we made promise together and vow to each other no matter what happens, we'll be with each other side by side. but now, it turns out lies to me.
Maybe, I'm not the one perfect for you , I sense it after every fights and quarrels we had in the past.I had been staying strong after every fights , staying happy in front of you , cause I doesn't want to show the truth to you , that I'm badly , badly hurt .

You're all I have that I couldn't survive without it. But now you had gone, thoughts and thought spinning in my mind, questions and questions behind every thoughts. They say just let it go, I can't even I tried, I am trying and trying , but it still fails.

people asking me how am I? my replies will be like yeah? I'm fine. I'm alright, no worries, I'm alright. But I'm still me , ownself struggling from all the troubles , surviving alone and telling myself just let it go. It's worthless.  But I just couldn't sit here and stop thinking of you, You are all stuck in mind , my heart had never stop and I had never stop loving you, 

All I've get is nothing is without you .

The times when people telling me to trust you more and giving you the freedom that you need it, I deciding whether I should, at last I given and

PEOPLE says relationships without trust is an unhealthy r/s , yes, it was truth. But, in the end

what I've got from you? many times getting lies and false hopes people questioning me why I hadn't give you the much freedom so that you wouldn't had to lie but I

Look what you had done?

just once, just once be real with be faithful to me can you? all I need is that you could stay loyal, honest, the guy that I know 2 years back, the distance we both had from the start that

brought to us from the beginning  to end with. It terribly hurts when I hear someone calling out for your name and when I turn back ,  you wasn't there, 

'' IT MAY BE OVER , BUT IT WONT STOP THERE'' '' 

i am here for you , if only you'd care '' 

unwell for a week

So, to start off summaris(ing) my week , I was terribly sick for the FREAKING ONE whole week. Sore throat , running nose that lead to blocked nose and feverish came in one straight in a row.

Mainly is because of the weather that keep changing , and the heat are around in my whole body , making me even sweating after I bathe. I just hope Singapore will SNOW one day but

that was JUST A DREAM ! It won't happen at all. ( so I told myself to stop DREAMING )

And so without going to see the doctor , I ate those medicine that I had at home. And my Dad bought for me Panadol as he knew I'm having a bad headache ( but he nagged at me ) cause Panadol cannot be consume too many times. 

And for this week , I'm also as usual struggling on my school work. Well, just wish me all the best for my upcoming exams ba. 

Alright, guys . my headache is getting worse . Have a good rest people !

goodnights !❤

xuan

weep , study date

                                        

So , some of you will be asking me why did I deleted my blog i created in the past...

so here's the answer.For the past few weeks , I've been considering whether should I create a blog again , and yes I finally make up my mind... My reason of urge of making me deleted my blog in the past , is because I find it tiring to keep updating it and also my pictures went all missing and I hope after this time, it will not happen again ,

SPARE ME A LIFE 

So, I decided to blogged about my last weekend as I think that's the only to blogged since I'm so stressed up during the weekdays too.

I went for a study date with my fav junior Jazmaine . , and it was half way spoilt cause we didn't managed to find some place in the library when we met each other at 12 noon at je. So we went to mac and study instead , and as you all know , mac is not QUIET at all. People chatting away and laughed... and I gave up half way studying ... URGH . but not bad , I completed BPF CA Test today , and I managed to survived.

And as you all can see , above is our spams photos, I didn't managed to post all cause some were really unglam. And so we both hardly meet each other, we decided to spam throughout the whole afternoon.

Updates // sorry guys if I couldn't update my blog often, as this few weeks are a very hectic week, exams , tests all scheduled.

okay, goodnights!❤

xuan